The beach is my second home

Hello sweet peas,

I’m here to share another one of my lovely family days out with you and to the place I consider home (I’ve always aspired to be a mermaid, secretly) yes you guessed, the beach!

Anywhere where there is sand and a calming sea to satisfy all my thoughts away pleases me greatly.

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Me, mumma, Ella, Nana and my uncle all decided a family day out to chill out at the beach was needed, as we are all indeed great lovers of the sunshine. We don’t live too far away luckily, so after only a 1 and half hour drive we finally arrived and quite quickly set up for a wonderful lazy day with a beautifully clear sky and sea. I’m also the worlds biggest book worm so of course I had to bring a fabby read with me, I bought “One Day”, I’ve just started reading this book as I absolutely adored the film. It is taking me a bit to get into but so far I’m actually really enjoying getting to read and experience parts they couldn’t show in the film.

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I also loved spending time with my little sister because oh boy the busy life of that one 12 year old astonishes me. I never ever see her anymore. Never the less we shall always be incredibly close and it was such a lovely thing to be able to have a catch up and a good old sing on the way (me and my sister jamming to frozen is always one of my happiest things in life) I actually love being able to watch my sister grow into a young woman and I cherish in being her older sister, in hoping she looks up to me, that would be wonderful.

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The ability just to escape reality and enjoy a day away from the daily tasks and aspects of life is so great when you spend the day with your toes in the sand. “Life at the beach it better” as I always say, almost as if looking right down at the sea beyond all them miles – you’re free.

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I also conquered one of my biggest fears that day and felt extreme achievements – for the first time in 3 years I faced having an ice cream and out in public. It was most certainly one of the scariest things I’ve done, yet another step forward to a happier and healthier life. I don’t want to be deprived from the tiniest pleasures in life and I’m working on it. It just takes a hell lot of will power and determination with a dash of stubbornness – and if you know me you shall be very aware or my stubbornness…

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Happiness is so much more important than stresses, worries and fears in life and I want you all to remember this, day in day out.

Speak soon,

Holl xxx

 

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What if tomorrow didn’t exsist?

Hello sweet peas,

I hope you are well and enjoying the lovely sunshine in that Britain has finally provided us with, I know I am at long last however I am half expecting the usual rain to hit us anytime soon.

I’m out to make this short but sweet and take a moment to share this song with you in which I’ve grown to really love. It’s a new song by Sia who I’ve actually always liked however I hadn’t properly listened to this song because I wasn’t too keen at the start but after finally listening, I realized how much I adored the lyrics.

“I’m going to live like tomorrow doesn’t exist”

This lyric in particular caught my attention, as I caught myself in a little daze over analyzing it (Please tell me I’m not the only one who does this… haha)

I like it never the less and I think I can really apply it to a lot in my life at the moment. I find I live too much in the “what if..” rather than trust what I feel right this second. “What if this goes wrong”, “What if tomorrow I feel fat”, “What if tomorrow this food make me gain 20 stone”, “What if tomorrow they won’t talk to me” but what if tomorrow wasn’t to come around? What if just by chance tomorrow were to never exist? So think, if this were true, would you really be fussed about the message you just sent yet suddenly regret or the slice of chocolate cake you failed to challenge yourself to. If tomorrow isn’t there then why in the hell would it matter because you’d focus on enjoying now, you wouldn’t be contemplating what the next 24 hours would supposedly bring. You’d be living.

That’s what I want to try and attempt, I want to live this moment like in the next waking it weren’t to matter. I want to attempt at trying to loose the thoughts that every little move I make today impacts massively on my thoughts, feelings and actions the next day. I want to live, embrace and enjoy now because in all honesty that’s all that really matters (yes I know this sounds cheesy but it’s true)

Who cares if you gain a lb in one night? It’s probably water weight.

Who cares if you say the wrong thing and he never talks to you again? You can’t please everyone.

Who cares if you don’t do everything on your ‘to do’ list? You’re only human.

I mean think of reality, being very close to loosing life and feeling like I had lost life, truly we don’t know that tomorrow is going to come around at all.

Lets just stop and be happy.

Speak soon,

Holl xxx

Slightly tea obsessed…..

Hello Sweet Peas,

Oh today the post man most certainly made me an extremely happy girl! Taking in account when he dropped off my parcel he laughed and said “Best pop the kettle on”.

Yes, I got a fabulous twining’s delivery and yes I got a tad over excited towards this, good old mumma (I’m not sorry in the slightest)

And no I really didn’t just have a 20 minute conversation about tea…

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See how bloody amazing this is?! I discovered the twinings website and was completely in my element. 70 different tea bags, including many of my favorites: Pepper mint, Lemon and ginger, and carmalised apple. And many many new ones for my taste buds to discover: Buttermint, Mango and Strawberry, and Liquorice. I’m in tea heaven. (Oh god I sound sad….. Haha)

Plus the lovely glass jar for just £17.50, I mean how good is that for value ey? So if you’re a tea lover like myself be sure to get yourself onto the twinings wonderful website.

So I’m most certainly off to dip my hand in and pick one to my surprise….

Speak soon,

Holl xxx

The path to self confidence

Hello Sweet Peas,

“You were wild once. Don’t let them tame you.”

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I’m not one huge for quotes as such however this one shall forever be my favorite. I love it and it’s quirkiness, common you can’t disagree! It’s one I apply to not just huge situations but to my day to day life most days.

I’ve been contemplating writing this post for a while now, as at times I feel I could be slightly hypocritical, as I’ve always been known as not the most confident of people. Looking at the younger me, I was the quiet, more vulnerable, shy girl who was most certainly scared to ‘speak up’  for what she felt or wanted. Yet that’s how I discovered my love for expressing myself through pen and paper and good old literature of course, yet again it was simply another thing I failed to believe I could ever achieve.

I’ve grown however and into someone who strongly believes that fears shouldn’t be crafty and stand in the way of you ever reaching for something you want. So looking back and at how far I’ve actually come as a person, I thought, why shouldn’t I write this post? I could pass my techniques and ideas onto someone’s benefit – so here I am.

Confidence comes in all different forms really – body image, completing daily tasks, goals and dreams, or even down to simply a conversation with someone new. We all have our very own strengths and weaknesses in different aspects of life and of course it’s good to accept that, that is okay because I can express to you now how god damn healthy that is – everyone struggles.

It’s takes an awful lot to begin overcoming fears, challenging ourselves and supplying yourself with confidence – if it isn’t always there naturally (and if it is always there, then well done, because I think you cracked life.. haha)

However do I believe it can be learned, practiced and improved gradually. If you have already signed the deed in deciding you are the ‘shy’ ‘un-confident’ type who cannot achieve your huge dreams or wear that dress because it doesn’t ‘suit you’, stop right there, that’s not you and it should never detirmine what you want. I’ve learned that, (I’m no professional but I’ve tried) – So I want to share some of my ‘tips’ with you.

  1. Negative and Positive balance –

It’s human nature to allow our brains to jump head first straight to the negative aspects and thoughts of a situation. It’s normal and okay when you can focus on some fabby positives also however when you begin to completely dismiss any positive and hope at all, well then it appears a problem. It’s all about balance – too much positivity would be incredibly weird but none at all just leads you to complete misery. But how do you possibly begin to weigh out these thoughts?

You can apply this ‘balancing out’ in any self confidence matter however a big issue I and many others face is worrying and anxiety, in which affects daily decisions, tasks and events massively. After years, my anxiety has surprisingly improved since I start mastering this technique and all it takes is practice!

You have to begin to argue back against the negative thought, and a good way to start is by creating a chart or writing it down. Start with writing the negative thought or comment, for example – “I don’t want to go out with them, they don’t really want me there” “I can’t wear that dress, it makes my bum look HUGE!!!!” “I can’t possibly speak in that presentation, I’m too shy, I’d mess up” .

Then make a second column (and this is the hard part)…. the opposite positive thought. For example – “I could actually have a great time, they asked me to come and they didn’t have to, of course they want me there” “This dress actually makes me legs look amazinggggg!!” “I’ll find speak in the presentation difficult but if I never try I’ll never know, it could go brilliantly and I’m going to get the job”

Try and think of more and more positives, and the more you search for the easier it’ll get – it’s perfectly normal to receive the anxiety and worrying thoughts but once you learn to start balancing them out, you’ll find life runs more smoothly. It’s like carrying two shopping bags, if ones heavier then the other eventually you’ll be weighed down. Yet if they’re even, you can walk out the shop satisfied with them gorgeous new pair of shoes you just bought for your date tonight 😉

      2. Don’t assume everyone you meet thinks badly of you –

When you’re different, sometimes you don’t see the millions of people who accept you for what you are. All you notice is the person who doesn’t”

I don’t want to say the usual ‘Don’t care about what people think about you’ because even I know that’s way too difficult, again due to today’s society, it’s only normal to do so.

Yet over time I’ve taught myself something along the same lines but tricked my mind slightly, instead of not caring at all, I say “stop assuming they’re thinking badly”

You can sometimes be making someone for the first time or simply walking down the street and start to assume the craziest of ideas – “They’re staring at me, they must think I’m fat” “Do I have something on my face” “I didn’t say the right think, god they must think I’m stupid” “They didn’t even smile at me, they must hate me” “I bet they thought I looked a mess” Okay, you get the point I could go on forever here…. But, did you ever stop to think about how we are all doing the same thing? We are all worried about what we are thinking about each other, so really it’s just a vicious circle. Also, on my balancing line again, isn’t there just as much chance that someone is thinking positively towards you rather than negative? They could be contemplating how amazing your hair looks or questioning where you got your top from because they love the design. Never jump to the conclusion that what you feel about yourself is actually what the rest of the world sees. As soon as you perfect that, you find yourself forgetting about people around you and enjoying life.

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     3. Learn to trust yourself before others –

“As soon as you trust yourself, you will learn how to live”

Of course I know the importance of trusting loved ones and others around you however I find learning to actually trust yourself gives you far more possibilities in life. Lets look at it in the aspect of goals and dreams. Most of us have this strong belief that we aren’t ‘good enough’ to achieve something or we’d never make it, it’s easy for me to sit here and say start believing in yourself obviously yet why can’t we? Because we simply accept criticism in the wrong context.

When someone tells you that you can’t, use that as a drug and let it take you way beyond the highs of proving you actually can! Trust that something you have an actual passion in is something you can shine to the world, whether it be acting, writing, singing, dancing, running, swimming or flipping sky diving! Bloody do it!

        4. Surround yourself with supportive people –

This one is actually quite obvious, yet we still fail to achieve it. If there is someone that doubts you or doesn’t provide you with a positive radiance and vibe, why are you wasting your time with them? Or worse trying to please them! It’s the same with things we watch, read and listen to, why do we watch things or read blogs or comments that simply make us feel worse about ourselves?

Instead surround yourself with people and things that please you and make you a happier person. It’s a wonderful feeling being with someone, doing something you love and simply forgetting the rest of the world because you can simply enjoy the situation you are in – you are happy.

For example my dog – I love the little bugger.

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      5. Try something new and practice it

“If your comfort zone is misery, it’s time to get uncomfortable”

I believe stepping out of your comfort zones is beyond useful for confidence. I constantly whether I am happy or not will become so used to something and then begin to fear it ever changing it or even trying something different – even if it is going to make me happy because I still have the doubt it won’t. We fear the unknown so we settle for our comforts, in most cases aren’t what we wish for.

Personally I struggle with new people, not talking to them but getting close and letting people in, I’d rather people just see the surface of me instead of the ins and outs. Yet more and more over the past few months I’m attempting letting people in, being more open about myself and appearing confident. Believe me it’s far more attractive to be simply proud of who you are rather than them finding out later on..

Try something new, big or small, important or not, just try it because you have no clue of the out come. You’ll never find confidence if you stick to what you’re comfortable with. Take a risk, today, now, do it.

And practice….. Practice everything I have stated, of course I am no professional but over time and years of practice I am finding self confidence is coming to me more and more each day. I used to be scared of wearing what I wanted, being who I wanted and saying what I wanted but truthfully I’m not anymore. Confidence doesn’t come over night and I’ll never be high on the confidence scale but with time and working on yourself and how you view things, I can assure you it gets a lot easier. Just don’t give up.

I hope you all enjoyed this post and a big thank you to my mum for becoming the photographer 😉 because I felt extremely happy today and the sun was shining, why not become a model? Haha. Have this attractive one to sum up the post…….. (I wasn’t ready at all..ha)

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Speak soon,

Holl xxx

The inner writer – 10 days of writing 9 &10

Hello Sweet Peas,

I’m being super kind and giving you the last two days of my little writing challenge in one! Well it’s the least I could do due to my slacking and I have to admit yesterdays blog post wasn’t as good as it could have been, but hey we can’t be perfect all the time right?

Anyway on and extra fabby brilliant note, I reached 100 followers and 3,000 views, wahey! To myself that’s such a massive achievement as when I first created this blog I never even imagined  or procrastinated that one person would stumble across my blog, never mind 3,000! Over the past few months I’ve actually had so many lovely comments in how I’ve helped, impacted and inspired people which to me is the most warming and lovely thing to hear. I aspire to help and inspire at least one person with my writing and to know I’m on my way in achieving that makes me beyond happy.  So, a big thank you to any of you who come back to always read my blog or have stumbled across my little posts and decided to read down my blabbering, it means the world.

Anyway moving on, here’s day 9 & 10;

Regrets- Are there any huge aspects of your life you massively regret?

I’d like to say to you that there is absolutely nothing, ever that I have come to regret – yet if we all did that we’d be liars because sadly without fault we all regret something. I don’t however want to go into a list of things I regret, what good would that do me? or you, I’m feeling positive today. I’m gonna twist this a tad.

Why shouldn’t we regret? (even when we want to…)”

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As hard as it is to believe from time to time we just have to be simply reminded that the past is the past, it’s called that for a reason. It’s been and it’s gone and no matter how hard you think, it’ll never again be changed. We get so caught up on recalling the past and aspects of it we come to forget cannot be altered. So? what’s the point in moping and regretting things that have already happened when we could simply enjoy now? well that’s human nature of course.

However if you keep in mind that it cannot be changed, and keep repeating this to yourself despite your beliefs, we can only hope one day as humans we learn to let go a little easier.

Last but not least!!!!!

You – What makes you think you’re so special? A little harsh. But what do you see in yourself? What characteristics do you hide from everyone else?

Self-belief, ooo that dreaded thing for us all. Walking along the wire of confidence is a risky thing to do because within society we have become extremely judgmental towards the idea. Too confident and we are stuck up with a huge ego? Not enough confidence and we are simply attention seeking and unhappy? It’s never right or wrong. No one is ever satisfied.

Personally I think it’s wonderful to have confidence, just obviously not huge amount in that you’re annoying the whole world but I think it’s so important to believe in yourself. I believe the key to other people noticing your happiness and success begins with self-belief. To get anywhere with anything you have to start to realize that you can actually do it rather than relying on the support of others. This may sound harsh but it’s reality.

Writing is a funny old thing and I know so many people over the past year or so have clearly stated it to be a ‘hobby’ or something I’d never achieve in. I think one woman once told me to make a back up plan. I mean how stupid. I’d let out my passion to her, with my heart and soul just to be told how difficult it is to make it? Little did she realize it only made me what it more. That’s what I love about myself, determination. If I want something enough I’ll get there and I’ll make it not for anyone but myself.

I grew up myself believing writing to simply be a hobby, writing story after story admiring famous authors and novelists. It’s like the dream of wanting to act or sing but ending up working in M&S for 50 years (of course no offense if you do, I love M&S, haha) Never the less I never saw it possible. Yet one day I woke and realized it’s what I wanted, so I’m going to do it, just you watch.

I hope you enjoyed me looking a little bit more into myself. I’ve actually enjoyed this little writing challenge, it’s allowed me to focus on expressing things without sounding extremely blabbery and boring…well, I hope so…

I have some different types of posts that I’ve written, a few more hauls and beauty bits and bobs, so I hope you come to enjoy them too!

Speak soon,

Holl xxx

 

The inner Writer – 10 days of writing 7 & 8

Hello Sweet Peas,

Yes, I’m back and still striving through my little writing challenge. Okay yes I know I haven’t exactly stuck to ’10 days’ but hey I’m giving you two days in one here so you can’t complain really 😉 You’ll get 9 & 10 tomorrow also, so shush!

Anyway, I’ve been busy, busy, busy with lots of fictional ideas and upcoming blog posts (Which I promise I will get my bum in to gear and post soon!)

Memories – What are some of your most cherished memories? Did these events create a significant impact on your life today?

Me and memories have an awfully odd relationship. In fact sat here trying to answer that question quite literally scares me, as all of a sudden with such a large possibilities of answers, I feel brain washed. I can’t remember something so significant in which I cherish, unless it comes to me when I least expect it, please say this isn’t only myself?

Yet vaguely over my life so far, I remember wonderful  summers as a child, huge groups of friends and the never ending water fights, in which always resulted to me being the one soaked from head to toe (that’s what you get for being friends with a group of lads Hollie). I like to sit back and remember Christmases, times in which me and my whole family are completely and ease and happy, it allows me to feel enthused towards my own family and future. I adore Christmas and obviously Christmas shopping and I’m probably just weird in the fact thinking about it makes me super excited.. we are only in July.. opps.

In all honesty I don’t believe memories affect us in who we are today because it’s just the memory but they can certainly give us an idea on how to view something in this present moment. I think good memories however are there simply to remind us that positive things are possible in guiding us to the lighter aspects of life. They’re there to pick you back up again and remind you that there are good times and moments, in which we can sit back and smile.

Enchantment – What is your favorite Fairy Tale, Story, Fable, or Myth? How does the story enchant your mind?

You should have all guessed how much I love this topic because I am the worlds biggest Disney and Disney Princess freak…… opps.

As a kid growing up I was the biggest reader from at least around the age of two, I’ve loved fantasy, fairy tales and the whole idea of imagination and other worlds. I’ve always loved the idea of being able to create something completely down to yourself, never created before in which you can make your own. It’s magical.

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I have three main favorites – Rapunzel, Cinderella and Alice in Wonderland. They’re my absolute favorites.

Rapunzel has always been a favorite of mine simply because of her hair, as silly as that may sound, I admired it always as a kid. The only put off was the pink dress…. I never liked pink.. Also, as much I adore the original I am kind of a huge sucker for the Disney animated film version ‘Tangled’, I think it’s made with such a brilliant twist on the story…. and no I do not listen to the sound track..

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But that’s why I loved good old Cinderella, now I wanted to be her completely! She was the Disney princess that I completely consider perfect, everyone always said Belle but I liked to differ. Plus I always love the whole idea of the glass slipper and how simply a pair of shoes brought her to her one true love… which in life would never happen. See this is why fantasy is better right? 😉

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And lastly, Alice In Wonderland in which I seriously adore the story so so so much and I think it’s because it involves so much fantasy and that beyond pulls me in. I remember my Nana once giving me an old, original, version of the book which I’ve read an absolutely love and as much as love some of the remakes of this story, nothing will ever beat the original. Alice is such a wonderful character and I think as a kid she just reminded me of myself, which is probably why I love the story so much.. I just longed to be Alice… Haha.

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Speak Soon,

Holl xxx

The inner writer – 10 days of writing 6

Hello sweet peas,

I hope you’re well and today has treated you wonderfully, even if my day has been a tad on the boring side however I bought new shoes so it can’t all be that bad right? Anyway keeping that short and sweet, here’s today’s little topic (don’t worry it’s not massively in the deep end, you can make that sigh of relief)

Music – Pick three of your favorite songs. What feelings and thoughts do they bring you. Contentment, peace, encouragement, or determination? Have they impacted you?

This is like the worlds most daunting question for anyone of us, I think haha. That dreaded moment when a friend or maybe someone you’ve just met asks – “What’s your favorite song?” because quite frankly how could you ever pick a favorite song. There’s just too many. There is for me anyway, and the fact I most likely get a new favorite every other week, opps. However I’ve really had a think and put my mind to it and just about managed to muster up 3 of my favorite songs, and my favorite lyric from them, oooo (It was beyond hard, believe me)

1- Lies – Marina and The Diamonds: I know I have actually mentioned this one yet I have no denying in that this sogn shall always be a favorite of mine. I couldn’t really express to you what It makes me feel, I just some how feel incredibly close to the lyrics and the song, if that were possible. I feel she always portrays herself in such a strong minded way and I look up to her like no one else. Listening to it kind of sends me off to another little world, where it’s just myself and the wonderful Marina Diamond’s voice (I know I sound beyond deluded, oh well) Either way it sparks some crazy emotion within me, as seeing her perform it live caused me to hysterics, ah well.

“To believe it’s all been worth the fight” – I adore this lyric, simply because so many times I face the whole “Is it worth it” with situations and people and think that’s what we fear as humans. That once we’ve tried our best with someone, we’ll only be hurt or let down, if only we could have the reassurance at the start ey?

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2- How To Be A Heart Breaker – Marina and the Diamonds: I know! Another, I’m sorry! Nah I’m not really because again this is seriously one of my favorite songs ever. I found it so hard to pick between this one and ‘Are you satisfied?’ because believe me I love The Family Jewels just as much as good old Electra Heart. Yet, dare I say this song is like my life’s theme tune – If I were to be a film, or my life was a soap this song would be used, in fact make sure it’s played at my funeral, yep. If I’m ever in a bad mood or a bad place, simply play this song to me and I change within seconds. Marina continuously reminds me what it’s like to be strong and independent and a woman, I guess. Her lyrics are literally therapy to my ears, in making me proud of who I am. It makes me incredibly determined to strive for everything I want and not let anyone ever get in the way. And that is this song for you.

I couldn’t pick a favorite lyric from this song because I literally love them all and ladies should most certainly all follow the four rules.

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3 – Not Ready To Make Nice – Dixie Chicks: I’ll put my hands up, I’m full on guilty for loving country music and if you’ve never heard to the Dixie Chicks I suggest you check them out because I adore them. This song has an awful lot of meaning to me. I can relate to the lyrics an awful lot and over the years it has supported me and almost guided me through a lot of battles I’ve faced. If I’m ever angry or over thinking a situation, instead of fighting the emotion, I’ll play this song and sing it so loudly I most likely deafen the whole population within 100 feet around me.

Again, I love this whole song yet there is one lyric I really do cherish. It’s how the song starts and how it begins;

Forgive sounds good, forget I’m not sure I could” I love this so much because It’s so easy to forgive someone sometimes because you simply have to, yet the mark and scar they have made is never forgotten. You’ll always remember that and I think that’s what makes moving on so god damn difficult.

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Hope you enjoyed today’s post chicka’s but now I’m shattered and my bed is most certainly calling my name,

Speak soon,

Holl xxx

The inner writer – 10 days of writing 5

Hello sweet peas,

We’ve reached the half way point! (Yes, I know well done me) and I think you’re about to witness me become the most expressive I’ve most likely been, here you go….

Fears – No spiders or horror films. What actually truly scares you in which brings out human emotions? What does it make you fearful? How do you confront it?

Fear has been a big topic up in the old head of mine recently, I’ve come to realize it’s a constant thing I and most of us all have to confront.

Really when you think about it we over analyze and worry with our fears day in day out without realization because they are soon overcome – like crossing the road knowing if you don’t do it safely you could be hit down, yet before you know it you’re happy on the other side.

Now despite loving my blog and my article writing I do love a dabble at fiction writing and recently I’ve been working on a fictional story of two best friends and their journey through anorexia. I’ve set it up like a diary like form, where they both communicate and express their feelings. Strangely, yesterday I actually wrote a diary entry based on fear – yes it is based on my character but obviously I an relate, so I want to share it with you expressing my view on fear.

Fear, I believe isn’t a sign of weakness only a showing of strength. Yet we all continue to fear and no matter how big or small, we continue to believe it leads to all points of negativity. I am trying to view it differently never the less, as just maybe these concerns actually strike the inner demons in transforming me to an actuall hero.

We fear an awful lot throughout this disorder and it’s recovery. It actually supplies you with enough of the stuff, that you could never possibly dream of running out, lucky us right? Not. It’s daunting, draining and an extremely dismal position to face – I can assure you that. So much that everyday through your forcing of survival, you still fear and will continue to fear. It’s like playing fire with fire – you just get a much bigger fire.”

You can let fear bring you down and destroy you or you can take it to your advantage in making you a stronger person. For me it’s truly facing all of them voices that tell me I can’t or I shouldn’t and proving them wrong, it scares the living hell out of me, but the grass has to be greener on the other side.

Have you ever heard the quote “Feel the fear and do it anyway” – it’s one of my favorites and one I most certainly try to live by. It’s also a wonderful book written by Susan Jeffers, in which she writes about ways to face life and deal with fear in may of ways. She uses techniques to face negative thoughts and turn them into positivity, allowing us to strive for what we want.  It’s helped thousands including myself, so I’d highly suggest you go check it out,

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Let me know what you think,

Keep smiling and I’ll speak soon,

Holl xxx

 

The inner writer- 10 days of writing 4

Hello sweet peas,

Seriously jumping in the deep end with today’s topic, ooo, be warned…

History – What stories do you know about your family? What do you admire about them? What do you want your grandchildren to remember about you?  What do you want to be known for when you leave the world?

I told you right? so sit back and enjoy me blabbering on.

I had to insert a good old Disney quote, sorry

I had to insert a good old Disney quote, sorry

I know endless stories about my Nana and Grandad, I think that’s something we all love, sitting back and listening to the ‘good old days’, the memories and of course the wonderful story of ‘how they met’. I’ve heard about my Granddad’s great old tricks at school multiple times, yet they never fail to make me smile – the old blowing up a toad in the teachers fireplace is always a good one to tell. I want to jump straight into why I’m admired by them. They remind me of the realities of life and what it means to truly care about someone, I’ll forever treasure that.

Half the time I’m in stitches over them winding each other up, my Nana claiming my Granddad hasn’t done something or my Granddad’s constant ‘just make a list’ before Nana leave the house. And of course my all time favorite, the fact half the time they both can’t even bloody hear each other. Yet if you observe closely, you notice how my Grandad never fails to remind me what a wonderful woman she is or how they both constantly sing with each other around the kitchen and how my Grandad is forever making sure my Nana is okay and happy. What amazes me is they’ve known each other since they were 16, had three children, been to hell and back and are yet still striving. Still loving one another, still laughing at the same jokes, still dancing the same old jives. They represent to me what it is to be happy with someone. What it’s like to know someone inside and out, their awful points and their most brilliant points, yet still strive everyday only to end it with knowing you aren’t alone. I don’t intend this in the soppiest way in that it sounds, only the fact I see them like true companions and what living with someone should be like. Not perfect but satisfying, for yourself and the people around you.

That brings me to my next point – my own grandchildren (well I hope I have them, and can hope they like me… haha) Another reason I admire my Nana is with how determined and strong that woman is towards literally everything that is thrown at her in life. I look up to her so much and live each day hoping that just some day my own grandchildren will see me in this way. Plus I hope to be as fit and full of life by this time also, as my Nana still goes to the gym everyday without fail… yeah bet you feel lazy now 😉

I love this next question – What do you want to be remembered for when you leave the world? Now, you know me I’m an extremely huge believer in going for what you want despite what anyone else thinks or says about it. I want to write for the world and around the world and trust me I’m a stubborn bugger and won’t stop until I reach that. I want to be known for my writing. I want people to always remember that, that was something I loved to do most. I guess that’s the big picture of it all, yet even if I just ouch and inspire one person somewhere in remembering me I’ll be satisfied because I can surely say I still did it.

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Independence is another big factor I’d hope people know me for. I want to be known as someone who can strive and survive on their own. Not be alone because who wants that? but to know that “Yes I can bloody do this, I can do whatever the hell I like” because it most usually attracts the world around you. It’s confidence, I want to be known for this.

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However in a smaller light, I’d hope the people around me; family and friends come to remember me in the smallest of details – smiles and laughs and all the stupid things I’m bound to do, haha. I’d like to be remembered in the best ways possible, then again don’t we all?

I believe every human should make history in some way or another, whether that’s within your little family, towards a close friend or proving something to the whole entire world. You’re not here living, breathing and gaining chances for very long and you have a story to make. So as my favorite doctor Matt Smith once said “make it a good one”

Speak soon,

Holl xxx

Healthy Banana Oaty Pancakes – Recipe Lovin’ Wednesday

 

Hello sweet peas,

Yes you heard! Healthy pancakes and I’m about to share with you my own yummy recipe, mm.

Okay, yes I know I’m a little late on the bandwagon and if you’re a health freak like myself you’ll know that literally down every healthy related blog, Instagram, or twitter ‘healthy pancakes’ are everywhere. (Of course I had to try them out for myself)

I’ve looked for so long and endless recipes over and over trying to fin the right one for myself. Of course with the substitutes of flour and sugar changing like there’s no tomorrow however I still couldn’t find on I was happy with (or had the right ingredients.. oppps) So after endless thinking and trying I decided to just alter my usual oatmeal recipe and convert it to pancakes and with a bit of tweaking it actually became extremely straight forward and easy to use. Even if I still haven’t perfected the ‘perfect pancake stack’, they were still yummy…

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The Ingredients

  • 15/20g Steel cut oats
  • 1 Egg + 1 Egg White
  • 1 banana (Half mashed and half left for topping unless you want your pancakes super sweet)
  • 1 tsp of baking powder
  • 1 tsp of vanilla essence – optional (I love vanilla)
  • Cinnamon – optional
  • 1 tsp of flax seeds – optional
  • Which ever toppings you like – I would recommend raspberries, strawberries, blueberries, Greek yogurt, peanut butter, cinnamon, grape nuts, or almonds but spoil yourself go for anything you like!

And that’s it, – easy right?!

Method

Lucky for you the method for these pancakes is just as easy because it’s basically just ‘plonking’ all the ingredients together and blending away! Haha.

First I get my oats in a bowl, now stupidly my blender broke and I’m still waiting on a new one, so I have the joys of managing with a hand whisk/blender – it still works just as good though! They do need to be blended however as I use the oats as a flour substitute.

I then add in half the mashed banana, the egg and egg white, baking powder, vanilla essence, cinnamon and flax seed- and as I said it’s as easy as blending them all together until you get a clear, runny pancake looking mixture (making sure all your oats are blended well)

When this is done begin to heat your pan with either a little bit of coconut oil or the 1 cal spray I sometimes use, again this is all down to your own preferential. Wait a few minutes and add 1 to 2 table spoons of the mixture to the pan, depending on the size and thickness of your pancakes you’d like. You could also add a few blueberries or raspberries at this point jsut to give them a little bit more flavor.

Leave the first side to set for 1 to 2 minutes before carefully (the bit I tend to fail….) attempting to flip them over, if you’re successful you should get the perfect pancake, and I envy you…

Let that set for another minute or until your happy before repeating until all of your mixture is done and dusted with, see easy!

Then obviously you can top and serve them however you please, I love blueberries, raspberries and bananas. I’m still yet to find more wonderful creations.

If you also love good old healthy pancakes please let me know some of your fabby topping ideas, I’d love to know!

Speak soon,

Holl xxx